A late bloomer, that’s me.

The last time I felt this way was when Steve Irwin died tragically. And now my dear Heath Ledger…my hero, (second after Johnny Depp of course) had walked into the light.
This is how I’d like to remember him.

Heath as Patrick Verona

10 THINGS I HATE ABOUT YOU (click here for the video)


I hate the way you talk to me,

and the way you cut your hair.

I hate the way you drive my car,

I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots

and the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick,

it even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you’re always right,

I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh,

even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when you’re not around,

and the fact that you didn’t call.

But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you,

not even close

not even a little bit

not even at all.

I will miss you dearly and so it shall be… —-<@

This entry is dedicated to my dearest buddy, Anis. I did blog about her and her S.O a few entries back entitled Zahirul & Anis a classic love story.

I got a SMS on 14th of January at around 12:20noon. It read:
"Alhamdulillah…i’m 4 weeks pregnant…."
I literally jumped out of bed (I was watching ‘Sex & The City’ on hubby’s ‘mistress’) and called her. I couldn’t be anymore happier. We talked for about an hour how everything seemed to make sense, her nausea, her appetite, her sensitiveness and how people keep asking her whether she is pregnant. Indeed she is!
For those who have faithfully (and without prejudice) been reading my blog and checking out my profile, I’m sure you know how much this lady means to me. Anis is practically everywhere every time I need her, in sickness and health. And for all the good deeds, now she’s enjoying the fruit of her labor after about 8 months of trying. "Usaha tangga kejayaan" she playfully screamed during a lecture. Very true indeed. Check out her blog and you’ll know.

Naturally, I’m more excited than anyone could be. Remember the pregnancy book that I got for RM12? That was the first thing that I help Anis with. Then I started browsing for the ‘Day2Day Pregnancy’ calendar for her, not forgetting some useful blogs for mummy-to-be. I don’t know if Daphne Iking’s blog is much of a help as she delivered her beautiful daughter via C-sec and knowing Anis, this girl can endure any pain hence there’s no way she’s avoiding the natural labor pain. Perhaps Daphne’s first experience as a mommy may come in handy. And Ryan’s (Daph’s hubby) calmness may works its charm for Zahirul too.

The obvious thing about Anis now is her radiant complexion, if you notice in her default snapshot (besides people keep complaining how she has put a hefty amount of weight ever since she got married, heheh ampun Nis). Not only that, as a person who’s always around her I feel a certain happiness of which I can’t figure out what it is. Lately I’m feeling chirpy when I hang out with her. Maybe the excitement, I don’t know. As for Anis, emotional turmoil may come her way but as long as she has loving friends and family members she’ll do just fine. Now I can’t wait for her baby bump to show which means we can go shopping for maternity gears. Yay!! So far her craving is not kicking in just yet and am a bit sad as now I’ve got no Starbucks and vanilla coke buddy. Snapping out of that, on the bright side I know I’d be the greatest aunt the baby would ever get!

It’s funny when I delivered the news to my coursemates about pregger Anis, they seemed to associate the pregnancy with me. Just because we’re best buddies doesn’t mean we have to be pregnant together now do we? I got questions like,

1. What about you? Any good news?

2. Ko ni bila lagi ha? (Sambil picit perut, adoii sakit tau…)

3. Akak bila lagi?

4. Akak macam mana?

Only Aishah & Amer offered me comforting words, "Sabar ye kak, belum rezeki, cuba lagi." "Sabar Sab, belum rezeki lagi, nanti ada la tu" That brought a lump to my throat. Very sweet of them to see my situation in a different perspective. Perhaps when it comes to pregnancy my friends might think there’s a rivalry between me and Anis. Just a speculation, I’m not sure myself. All I know that I’m genuinely happy for her, no pressure and I’m not in denial either. When Allah SWT says it’s my time then it will happen. After all I’m not really trying as my savings won’t permit me to give the best for my child. I will wait. I wish to thank my friends who are really concern as what you say may become doa, who knows? Keep praying eh.

Anyway, CONGRATULATIONS Anis & Zahirul! I’m happy that I get to be with her during practicum and that give me the privilege to experience the pregnancy! I can’t wait for her first ultrasound, can’t wait to assist her on the documentation of her precious, can’t wait to rub her back should she vomit, can’t wait to praise on her looks even though she bloats like a puffer fish,  can’t wait for her to finalize on the names…So many things to look forward to. And as a friend I know one thing, Anis is going to make a great mom. That I’m very sure of.

—-<@ Drew.                                                                            

The year 2008 kicks off with the wrong foot.
Bad news all the way.

1. Dr. Chua Soi Lek sex video
2. Little girl Sharlinie is missing.
3. No supply of cooking oil & flour??
4. A Johore politician was shot dead.
5. Skyrocketed price in commodities.
6. Probably a price hike in fuel.

The only news that brought a smile to my face was this:

I got his from  Chedd’s website. He’s one of the talented dancers in Malaysia. I think he did coach the AF students. I’m happy that Siti has finally realized covering your ‘aurat’ is obligatory.
Good job Dato’ Bernard for designing this headdress. I wonder how much he’s charging her?
So much effort in earning pahala…Alahai Hajjah Siti, you never cease to stupefy me…

Alhamdulillah.

The thing that I fear the most finally happened. I could sense this coming a few months back ever since he laid his eyes on her. Now that she has arrived from the Big Apple, she’s slim, beaming, and elegant; everyone desires her and my hubby is no exception. She’s the beau ideal of her siblings, epitome of everything exclusive. And she’s here to conquer my better half.

Her arrival was a great eminence. For the past two months hubby has been ’studying’ how to explore her, how to keep up with her voguish maintenance, and hubby even participated in a forum especially dedicated on how to own this baroness that’s born in California. When the day came, of all the people, I was assigned to pick her up. She was elegantly chauffeured by a younger lad. Poised and stunning, almost like Ms.Beckham; I could feel my hand trembled on the first sighting of her. I felt feverish, I know my life is about to change. And it did.

Hubby has missed one morning departing to work without the usual ‘salam‘. He bought a nice cozy abode just for her. He slept closely with her after a gentle rub on her nose, she lulls him to sleep then he woke up with his palm gently on her cheek; even worse he went off to work with her by his side. He loves it when she whispers to his ears. He’d certainly drift away.

I think my hubby has fallen in love with someone else and that is like a knife driven straight to my heart. I can’t wait to be left alone with this particular mistress. I yearn to see what she has that I don’t.

So this is what it feels like when your loved one is cheating on you.
In my case it was ostentatiously displayed.
I’m in my 3rd year of marriage and slowly I’m deprived of affections.

I guess no Hallmark card for me this year.

Happy Birthday to me.