A late bloomer, that’s me.

I don’t know, this morning I came across this song over the radio then I just burst into tears… Mawi’s voice is so heart wrenching, I just couldn’t help it….

KIAN by ~Mawi~
Kian jauh
Kian hilang
Kasih antara kita

Nampak tenang
Pada zahirnya
Tapi batin terseksa

Yang terguris tak nampak dimata
Yang terhiris terluka
Sesekali terbit air mata
Tahan sebak didada

Ke manakah..nak dibawa
Resah kian melanda

Di manakah
Hendak ku khabar
Pilu di dalam dada

Bila kasih di hujungnya nyawa
Rasa ingin dimanja
Perasaan pun kian tersentuh
Bila rindu ini berlabuh

Apakah yang dikejar dalam hidupmu
Berkali ku kata padamu
Kita singgah di dunia yang sementara
Penuh tipu daya

Yang kekal
Disana
Biarlah..kita bersama

Usahlah
Hanyut terus terlena
Kerana dunia

Pada aku masih ada
Kasih belum terhakis
Sebenarnya..sudah lama
Ku sungguh berkecil hati

Yesterday, I accompanied Diane for a lil’ job hunting. I guess she’d tell  you a more interesting version of the story.Check out her blog, she’d update it anytime, I bet (your last entry on ‘Dissatisfaction’ rock babe!) And we watched "Wild Hogs". Weird though… I was thinking about bapak throughout the movie, you know how much he needs a break and how I wish I can sponsor both bapak and mak for a retreat perhaps at the Colmar Tropicale? *Hmmphh*  I wish, I wish, I wish!

Now, why am I dropping by in the 1st place? Ayih lupak indah maok naip apa…

Anyone of you watched "Kalis Cinta" last Saturday? I simply love Ady Putra and Catriona Ross, both of them have great chemistry on screen. The one who plays her sister, Wan Balqish (d character); she’s one hot chic! I wish Catriona a speedy recovery cuz her acting’s superb. She’s one of a kind. I met her once with her sis and dad and she was very sweet, i guess what a Scottish girl should be, courteous and all.

This morning, my sis-in-law called me asking me whether I can lend her my laptop… It’s not that I don’t want to but my old trustworthy laptop can evoke embarrassment. Why?  Well, 1st it’s a 2003 Compac, can’t even play DVD, then it’s covered with cellotape cuz the rubber part of it(what used to be the urban look of this laptop and made it lookin so HOT) had melted mysteriously, it has to use an external keyboard cuz the pad ‘U’ and some other characters on the original keyboard are not functioning anymore, there’s a funny vertical red line across the screen of which my hubby couldn’t find out what it is; however, it’s NOT slow and equipped with the latest 2007 Microsoft Office. Now, I already said yes but can I handle the rejection once they find out about the condition of my laptop? Pasti I akan jadi sedih… the same thing I feel when people refuse to jump on my silver Alya (ohh dat’s d name of my Kancil) cuz it’s too small of which I think is ridiculous cuz a car is still a car, no matter how roomy or limited the space is. And Kak Long asked me 1 question that really put my mood off, "Bila balik Kuching?" Of course I just giggled and didn’t give a definite answer instead changed to other topic, like asking her how’s her pregnancy and cravings going on and how’s Yaya bla, bla… as long as I shift her focus from ‘me going back to Kuching’ cuz it’s not gonna happen in the nearest future and I don’t want to talk about it anymore!

I think I ‘ll stop here. *Hmmphh*@#$%!!!

Drew Barrymore

1am and i was still mopping the floor of my room. Prior to that I vacuumed the whole house, much to my hubby’s amusement. "Apa mimpi plak ni?" he asked sarcastically. I guess I’m embracing my house chores once again after leaving it for d whole semester due to theater. I’m back in the game, back to cooking 101, back to laundry, back to making up d bed… back to being a ‘desperate housewife’. And I’m loving it every bit.
As i was tidying up my sanctuary,i listened 2 my fav station, Mix.FM and they were playing a Toni Braxton’s number; "Just Another Sad Love Song" and boy how much that song brought me down memory lane. Come to think of it, my life has been shaped into some of these songs back then… Particularly in d love department. Here are some of the songs that captured my heart once:

• Breathe Again - Toni Braxton
• Sittin Up in My Room - Brandy
• I Can Love You Like That - All 4 One
• Back for Good - Take That
• I Don’t Want To - Toni Braxton
• Jerk - Kim Stockwood
• Bizarre Love Triangle - Frente
• Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer
• Just to Hold You Once Again - Mariah Carey
• On Bended Knee - Boys II Men
• Someone to Love - John B
• Please Don’t Go Girl - NKOTB

These are the ones that I could think of right now. Honestly some of the songs were dedicated by loved ones, special people in my heart… You know who you are eh? Reminiscing the old days, funny how one could fall in love just like that! I’m glad that I’ve met lovers that really immersed me in a beautiful, meaningful and unforgettable relationship. Wink!
As for today, i think the best love song ever written is "Larut" by Dewa. Have you heard that song? It’s so beautiful, d lyrics, though extra short; would just blow you away! I love this song so much that I wish it become my wedding song. Oh I wish!
Humm, my first paper will be on d 20th and i have not flipped a page… boring lah. (Dah nak grad tok tang malas jak nak belajar. Ingat maok kerja jak… Best na juak mun after Dip dolok terus kerja pun sik apa, mesti kinek tok dah ada credit card dirik pun…sigh***ayih lalu ngerepak, ya ku madah…)

anyway, i am beyond homesick… am like homecomma. I miss Mak, Bapak and my sisters. I miss my hometown, even typing this put a lump in my throat…i miss driving in Kuching, i miss dropping by at Kenyalang, Teck Kong…Maok pegi Pasir Pandak, reservoir, arghh rindunya!! Bila lah lagik nak balit Kuching tok?

I think i better sign off… wanna have a good homesick cry…

PS: Jealous nangga adik2 pg berkaraoke…

I’m officially a big fan of Bean. I’m glad that i decided to watch it today, I’m off my problem for a bit and at least now can pull up my socks 4 finals (cuz there’s 1 individual born with rotten heart claimed that my grades are falling because i just know how 2 comment, hum patut ke? FYI this person is gonna get it so hard from me, so hard till s/he wishes that s/he was never been born! A**ho**! come to think of it, this person does look like 1.) Anyway, back to my mini retreat; Mr Bean’s Holiday is a great watch. I love d part  when he performed 4 money. Hilarious! I laughed like it’s no one’s business… Best lah, I wish I get 2 watch it with La Pomme though. Funny though, as d movie was about 2 start, bubbly Diane sms me askin me out 2 watch Mr.Bean’s Holiday! Kesian dat gal, should have asked her 2 join me then we can sink d hall with our maniac laughter. Maybe some other time la sweety, maybe we can catch other movie. This Dianne is my BESTest Sarawak buddy, love u 2 bits.
As i roamed Midval alone, I’ve noticed some good stuff of which I’m so determined to get. I have aimed 3 Kinsella’s books, a blusher, a wallet, new Clarks platforms as well as LaSenza’s knickers. Geramm eh. Nmind, my 2nd anniversary is around d corner, it’s time to pound my hubby’s wallet…kkikeikiee
I did some therapeutic session at d Hallmark and Memory Lane just now as I was hunting 4 mak’s bday card as well as hubby’s anniv card. I love reading greeting cards. The words are funny or touching or cheeky, you know… d sort that will put a smile on your face… Didn’t find anything dat suits my budget though cuz d 1s that i like r both above rm20…if 2 cards means rm40++… hadiah lagi…(aiii bila le nak kerja and earn like Dr. Noreen so that i can get hubby sumthin above rm100? sigh***)
I think I’ll drop by later. Takde idea dah. Got 2 cook for hubby.
TLC: BArrymore.

Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I’m not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I’m still waiting

I’m through, with doubt,
There’s nothing left for me to figure out,
I’ve paid a price, and i’ll keep paying
 
I’m not ready to make nice, 
I’m not ready to back down,
I’m still mad as hell
And I don’t have time
To go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right 
I probably wouldn’t if I could
Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

I know you said 
Why can’t you just get over it,
It turned my whole world around
and i kind of like it

I made by bed, and I sleep like a baby, 
With no regrets and I don’t mind saying,
It’s a sad sad story
That a mother will teach her daughter
that she ought to hate a perfect stranger.
And how in the world
Can the words that I said 
Send somebody so over the edge
That they’d write me a letter
Saying that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over

I’m not ready to make nice, 
I’m not ready to back down,
I’m still mad as hell
And I don’t have time
To go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could 
Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

I’m not ready to make nice,
I’m not ready to back down, 
I’m still mad as hell
And I don’t have time
To go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
Cause I’m mad as hell 
Can’t bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

Forgive, sounds good. 
Forget, I’m not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I’m still waiting