A late bloomer, that’s me.

Amidst the buzz and my
hectic life, these few days I was a little bit wrapped up in love stories and
relationships. Ever since I watched CINTA, I took my time and take a good look
at my own marriage, of my friends’ as well as others; the ones that I’ve heard
of.
As I’m typing this, I’ve been married for almost 20 months now. Syukur I’m
still in the state of honeymoon years although some glitches challenged us
along the way. So far I never questioned my decision to marry him. Although accompanied
by bumpy road, my marriage is what we can call solid. Solid because of my love
and his. Sounds cheesy but I believe in this marriage. I have faith in it. For
those of you who have watched CINTA, you’d know what I’m about to rabbit on.
Initially, I thought the character Airin, played by Rita Rudaini is a very
ungrateful wife. Having a husband like Haris is what every woman yearns of.
Then, I give it a second thought. There must be a reason why Airin’s character
is there. In marriage, LOVE alone is not enough. When you practically live
together under one roof; waking up, bathing, dining and stuff; you do need
something to spice things up. I believe having argument over some silly things
makes it to the list [besides raunchy love making]. Marriage doesn’t work if
it’s romancing all the way. (I can see some wives nodding frantically there).
Although I’m still new, I believe that’s the key to a healthy marriage; the
ability to argue or challenge our significant other but at the same improving
our communication. To review Airin and Haris’s marriage from this perspective
perhaps I dare to say that they’re lacking of arguments. Haris seems
submissive, hopelessly romantic and in the position of endless unsparing even
to the things that Airin doesn’t need. For me, and surprisingly to my other
wedded friends, it is OK for married couple to sour things a little bit. This
is just to review our partners in a different light; after a few
self-reflections then we can improve for the better, hopefully.

The recent NONA magazine
featured an article on the newly weds, Dr.Fazley and his gorgeous wife, Azrene
Soraya. Their love story will make you go awww… But I truly think that he’s
able to pull things off because he has the source, yes; the $$$. Long-distance
relationship could be really pricey and can drain you out. You’ll find yourself
maintaining your relationship more than actually having one. I’ve been down
that road and the ‘pricey’ part, I couldn’t agree more. Here, again LOVE alone
is not enough, it comes with a price tag and in Fazley’s case, I’m sure it’s A
LOT (so as Datuk Siti). In the same magazine, my hubby’s classmate’s wedding is
also featured in the article. In fact the same couple was featured in NONA, the
TV show. Funny when the bride says, “I
choose him because he’s childish”. Their
relationship is not cheap either. Both of them practically grow with
silver spoon in their mouths. Since money was never a problem, ‘childish’ trait
can be attractive and to her young mind (she’s 23), maybe she’s thinking, all I
need is for my husband to make me laugh, money can take care of the rest. How
nice… They make a handsome couple though and they’re really sweet. Very humble
and far from being show-offs (Oh really?)

Did I tell you that I
met Zahirul and Anis? Yes, the classic love story. Newsflash: They’ve attended
the pre-marital course and Anis has been ‘reserved’ (dah bertanda). I’m really
happy for this couple because they’ve overcome all obstacles and crappy relationships
to reach to the awakening that they do belong to each other. In their case,
LOVE alone is not enough as it has to come with ‘lessons to learn’. They’ll be
married soon and I’ll keep you updated.

Actually I have a few
more to babble about but time hinders me from proceeding.

LOVE, can’t live with
or without it.

LOVE does not mean
compromise, it allows.

LOVE is not FOC.

Result is finally out and yes, I got exactly wat I’ve been expecting… It bothers me though that 1 respective lecturer got me a B+ for her paper that I thought I’d nail. Oh well, there’s always sem 6, 7 and 8 to improve. 1 & 1/2 year to go. Cepatlah grad!!!! I nak beli MyVi!
I’d like to thank Marina & Anis for being so supportive and encouraging. They do very well this semester. Marina, I guess you are heading to Japan afterall huh?? Nak ikut?? And to my hubby of course; thank u mucho.

I still haven’t watch Cicakman. Geram…
Tak sabar wanna wait 4 my mom & sis to come over..
Oh ya, it’s 15 more days to go to 2007 and no resolution has been made yet. Typical Sabrina.
Muahahaha!!

Actually it was yesterday. Today, it’s 26 more days to go before I turn 27.  After I hit 25, birthdays don’t interest me anymore. "Under-achiever" was stamped on my forehead after I celebrated my 25th birthday (I’ve forgotten how did it go). There’s a fine line in distinguishing one’s achievement. 1 criterion never to be ignored is when that person achieves it. In my case, I guess my glory came a little bit too late. No one is psyched to celebrate what I’ve accomplished. Perhaps if it was done 7 years ago, then it’d be worthwhile… Still, I won’t let that break my spirit to achieve my dreams. No one can take that away from me, not even for the fact that most of my chums are laughing their way to the bank to deposit some money and unlike me they don’t live through paycheck by paycheck. They can always purchase the Stilla lipglaze in a snap of a finger while I have to settle for a Silky Girl’s instead…NO, I always tell myself that my time will come.

Although birthdays don’t fancy me anymore, I am
looking forward to the next one cuz Mak and my sis will be coming over.
I know they don’t actually come to celebrate it but I am glad that my
loved ones from ‘home’ are gonna be here with me. There’s no specific
plan yet but I’m hoping to catch a play at the KLPac. InsyaAllah, hope
everything runs smoothly.

I was supposed to watch ‘Cicakman’ today but the traffic jam was unbelievable it ended up with fuel wastage and an uninvited argument with hubby. Seriously I didn’t see that coming. Maybe ‘Cicakman’ can wait but the lump in your throat when you’re in an argument takes time to disappear. Hope it will when the light goes out.

Did I tell you about my boiler? It was spoiled yesterday and imagine my horror when my hubby instructed me to boil water from a cooking pot! Right then I felt like ‘Gosh, my life’s deteriorating!’. Then I thought, some kind of a drama queen I could be when all he did was to improvise under some circumstances, like this one. Anyway, being fussy as he always be, he bought a new boiler eventually. Not of any popular brand but ‘kopak’ his wallet in a way.  And my mobile phone; argghh… after almost 3 months it was kept in Nokia centre, at last the salesperson called me to pick it up. Now, when can I find time to go all the way to Sg.Wang? You tell me. And I just realized that I lost the memory card along with my MNG wallet during the USM trip. See? Drama queen or not, I do lead a life that is full of hamartia and hubris!!

Gosh, it’s already 5 and I need to get ready for my evening shift. Oh, anyway… last night I got praised by a customer. For me, that’s an accomplishment of a sales assistant and I’m loving it to every bit.

Allah is kind and wise. Things do happen for a reason.

Down come the rain and up come the sun.

My song of the decade, "I Belong To Me" by the lovely Ms.Jessica Simpson. Yes, I belong to myself, my complete being belongs to Allah SWT, my Almighty Creator. I love this song because in the vclip, Ms.Simpson is so emotional and she’s looking so fragile just like the state I’m in right now.

New year is just around the corner and I haven’t think of any resolution.(Not that I ever had any in the previous years…) As I was watching Oprah, she said something that snapped my mind. "Hope is not a plan" She’s so right. (Actually Anderson Cooper was right). Hope is never a plan and that’s why I never had any resolution in the previous years. That was why I never succeed in my attempt to lose weight; didn’t succeed to scrap my procastination trait plussss; I never succeed in giving myself extra credit for what I’ve accomplished. Simply because I just ‘hope’ that things will happen and all these years ‘hope’ to me is a form of prayer. Who am I kidding yeah? Anywayz, it’s not that I’m adding ‘to lose weight’ to my new year’s resolution list. That would be tempering with Bridget Jone’s resolution. Heheehe… Just like previous years, I’d rather live things to go with the flow, only minus ‘hopes’ and ‘wishes’.

There’re lots of bittersweet things going on this year especially in the friendship department. I have finally learned that you can’t really self-disclose with a friend because they will eventually use ‘em against you especially when you’re at your most vulnerable state. Some friends are simply parasites, sucking the best out of you; once you’re dried and smoked they’ll jump to their other vics. Some just think that they’re heroes and have the every rights to break off a friendship. Oh well, HELL to them.

And this year witness the loss of so many valuable things in my life. The value here is ‘SENTIMENTAL’ in definition. I’m working my butt off to replace the things I have lost. Among the many things, one was safely found, none other than my beloved pet cat, Tyger Lily. She was missing for 9 days and the ordeal that I went through to look for her was excruciating. Syukur Alhamdulillah she’s now reunited with us.

I never mention about a good friend of mine namely Zi Wen. I miss her a lot. I can’t wait to meet up with her next sem. Wen is a girl who knows no boundaries and so as her other buddies, Jasmine, Yi Ling & Yin Yin. They’re like the positive energy in the class. They never judge you and their thoughtfullness touch my heart. In the class I can name you those who are really thoughtful with the purest intention at heart. Anis is one ‘em too, very thoughtful and there’s Shara & also Susan, great upbringing. And there’s Marina Maarof, the one who have faith and sees the potential in me. Speaking of Anis, I miss her. She hasn’t return any of my calls, probably she’s busy with her engagement prep and for the fact that her parents are leaving for pilgrimage. If you’re reading this Nis, call me; we’ve got lots of catching up to do.

It’s 1:19AM already. I think I better type-off for now. I think I’m gonna have a blog countdown to 2007 (provided that I have the time). I can’t wait for my lil sis to register in IIUM. I’m so happy for her. And I pray hard that my parents and my other sis will come and visit me at the curtain call of 2006, that I’m sure will be a GREAT year-end call for me. If this year is full of loss, let’s pray that 2007 be the year of discoveries & packed  with good news!!

PS: Anyone have watch ‘CINTA’? Care to share with me your review?

TLC: ~Sabrina~