A late bloomer, that’s me.

I hate exams!
I’m wondering how on this earth excellent students maintain their exam result?  Don’t they get tired of fulfilling their own expectations?
Probably they’re just born genius so it’s not a constituent of their brain to set any target.
My brain has worn out.
I’m 26 for goodness sake and very soon turn 27…
When I marked the OMR paper with a 2B pencil yesterday during EDU3053 test, I found myself sayin,
"This is crap! What am I doing here?"
At my age I should have gone abroad doing research or attending seminars or simply counting my bonus and incentives!! Darn!
I’m not gonna be good to myself until the end of this year. I’m bitter. I’ve lost the purpose to ace the finals. I just want to graduate and have money on my hands. I want to get my dream car. I want to help my husband to pay the bills. I want to be able to buy magazines without feeling guilty. I want to be ready to have kids!
I hate my life, at the moment. Hate it! Bencii!!!

PS: Thanks Anis for the serunding daging rusa. Sedap Wo!

Aku sudah bermaafan bersama rakan2 sekelas. Lega rasanya meniggalkan semester 05. Semester ni paling mencabar buat diri ini. Paling banyak kenangan pahit. Paling banyak mengusik kalbu. Paling banyak berjumpa orang jahat yang bertopengkan manusia, yang menggunakan amalan solat-tak-tinggal sebagai senjata untuk memburukkan orang lain. Ada yang menggunakan masalah keluarga untuk meraih simpati dan merampas hak milik orang. Tapi tidak apa, ini bulan mulia. Doa orang yang teraniaya seperti diri ini insya Allah akan dimakbul Tuhan. Sesiapa yang hidupnya tidak ikhlas dalam berbuat sesuatu DAN menikam sahabatnya dari belakang nescaya tidak akan hidup senang. 

My husband dearest, thank you for being there. Through ups and down, through thick and thin.

Anyway, I’ll be celebrating Aidilfitri with my inlaws in Alor Setar. I’m truly sad that I won’t be able to celebrate Hari Raya with my family back in Kuching as well as dear friends. Looking forward to next year.

Maaf Zahir dan batin. Halalkan makan minum. Yang dirindui, you know who you are.

TLC: Sabrina