A late bloomer, that’s me.

4 main things dat shaped my weekend.

i learn dat 2 have bestfriends, u don’t have 2 sacrifice urself n try 2 make everything pleasant. if they don’t love u means they just don’t, nothing in between. however, Allah will help u 2 overcome any obstacles if ur sincere in ur friendship and if u pray 4d best of ur friends.

i learn dat, ur hubby will be with u through thick n thin, from d sweetest candy 2 d deepest sh**. even when ur friends sold u out and give ur ‘place’ 2 someone else w/out consulting u 1st. ur hubby is ur saviour, always.

i learn dat having a baby is d most precious experience ever…Mak,  Shasha, Kickie and Kak Ieda, I, therefore salute you.Congratulations!

I learn dat nothing beats ur hometown. Kuching, i will always love you n am gonna miss u like crazy!!

TLC: Sabrina.

Finally am done with my microteaching. Pn.Jue is like, d greatest lecturer ever.tq 4 giving me d 1st slot. i enjoyed it very much. N now,it feels gr8 2 be home… hearing ppl around me speaking s’wakian malay..feels like am in heaven. i went 2 pasar minggu just now n gosh! i never realized how much i miss d food, d heat, d people, till i was actually among ‘em… and i’ve fulfilled my cravings 4 satay cekor,mee bandung kubah ria, d apam balek and of course d laksa…yea, did i mention about d new-oh-so-KLIA-wanna-be airport? kinda happy about dat cuz definitely d toilet would be KLIA-ish as well…

Ok, Sha dearest… if uv been reading my last 2 blogs, u’d notice that i sounded furious over a few things… oh yes..  u know, it’s d same old same old thingy about ‘buddies’… i think d only true friend dat i say really stood up 4me is your Kak Poula.(Augustine and Zach,i know u guys r smiling at this point.. ) U know i feel dat am so worn out, used, stabbed n stuff…i don’t know what i did wrong n i never bother 2 find out why they’re being such self-absorbed cuz i know my confrontational temperament will bring me 2 nowhere. however, things r going quite well now, probably i’ve put all d negativity aside n come 2 class with a clear mind n a clear heart…baca doa lah banyak2 mintak ’sahabat’ ini dibukakan hati utk ‘IKHLAS’ dlm perhubungan. Allah, d most merciful indeed.

My redefinition of a ‘bestfriend’ would be someone who never fails to appreciate what you have done 2 her/him and constantly share all d sweet things and even d deepest shit. and definetely a person who’d NEVER sell u out,n shit u 2 other friends…Friends must always try to bring d best out of each other.Period.i must say now that am feeling a bit at ease cuz things start 2 cool down between us.we’ve been supportive 2wards each other 4 ths few days.guess we’re heading 4 a good start next sem and i hope that’ll be d utmost sincere friendship we’ll ever have.as i always put it,never step on my tail, n u won’t make ur life miserable…

i wish i can go 2 ranchan pool 2morrow or tasik biru in bau… perhaps i’ll try persuade mommy 2 go 2 damai beach n that’ll be an ultimate vacation!

PS: Suddenly i have this really strong urge 2 have a baby although i know i can’t afford one…sigh…like anis said,"Life is not a problem 2b solved"…maybe she’s right afterall.. anyhow, this whipped-up trip was really10x FUN N I JUST WANNA KEEP IT DAT WAY!

C U GUYS ON TUESDAY!

So…finals are here. "Are you ready?" i asked myself… "NOT!" A good sis of mine encouraged me 2 ace my finals this time around, as good as hers? I doubt it if i can… Am a lil discouraged when i’ve discovered that a prominent Dr. would teach us next semester. i’m pretty traumatized over what had happened last semester so, even the mentioning of his name would send d chills down my spine, if u know wat i mean??…
I’ve been so lethargic lately… i don’t know why…(probably nights of passionate and wild love making with my hubby)or maybe am just darn worried over my microteaching?
Anyway am so looking 4ward 2 this friday as i’ll be going 2 Kuching. although am coming strictly 4 family reason, still… can’t wait 2 be in d embrace of my mommy n dad. Miss ‘em so very much.

Btw, yeah, if u’ve noticed my shout out i think u know what am trying to say…then, ask yourself this:
"What happen to a friendship when there is only you making the effort to keep it alive?"
If you’re in a great bond of friends right now, do advise me cuz i think am losing my bestfriends, and they don’t have d slightest clue how much i really love them, care about them and so afraid of losing ‘em…Am in d position of letting go(i don’t know 4d good of whom)but at d same time i know am letting go something beautiful…
(For the record, I dare say that I didn’t do anything wrong 2 smear this friendship in the first place) Do advise…Desperate housewife indeed…Haha!